Wednesday, October 11, 2006

an upward and outward spiral

I had a discussion with my boss a while back and shared my candid views on my lack of upward mobility and feeling like I was being treated like a commodity. At the time my frustration level was high, my patience was low, and it didn't take much to set me off.

One thing my boss said stuck with me. He said he "viewed life as an upward and outward spiral." He went on to describe this as the movement foward, the betterment of his and his family's lives, and the positive social impact he felt he was having. Initially I credited his charmed trust-fund existence with his being able to make such a blithe statement.

I don't know exactly when or why, but I finally got it. I'm not Pollyanna by a long shot, but I do realize now that I have choices. I can choose to better myself or I can choose to languish. I can choose to be positive or I can choose to be negative. I can choose whether my life is a downward descent into despair, or an upward and outward spiral toward happiness.

4 comments:

  1. Does this mean you're going to be a shiny happy camper from now on?

    ;-)

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  2. So basically, he was saying "more upwards and outwards." Which translates to me to "find another job."

    If you're interested, so am I. nathan@openntf.org

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  3. No, not a shiny happy camper, I didn't suddenly go zen or Pollyanna. I am taking ownership for what I can and leaving the rest as other people's baggage, that's the first step. And I'm also doing more to move myself forward. One of my challenges has been that I was a gifted child (140+ IQ) and things came easy, so I got lazy over time.

    Now I'm buckling down, applying myself, and moving forward. I don't know if my boss realizes the affect this has had, but I truly believe I'm on the cusp of a dramatic positive change in my career.

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  4. Yup. Basically, dont let others control your emotions, your agenda and your life.

    After all, its all about the journey, right ?

    ---* Bill

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